act I - VIII
Monday, December 28, 2009 10:25 PM
1
"I'm not happy."
"Why?"
"I'm not happy with you, because of you."
"So? What are you gonna do about it. Are you going to change me?"
"Yes, I will if I can."
"The problem is, you can't. Fool, you can't change someone they way you want them to be. The easiest thing you can do, is to yourself."
2
They asked me one day, "Whose side are you on?"
I tell them, "Never on any."
3
"Do you have something against me?"
"No."
"Well then, OK, but if you do, I don't give a damn. Because I've held up so much I wished I never knew you."
4
I don't understand the crumpling inside feeling. I'm not weak, not saying anyone is.
But I feel like they are stupid, that they don't understand what I understand. They don't agree with what I agree. Just stupid. Nevertheless, why the hell am I there?
5
"Why? Am I supposed to do what you expect me to do? What am I? A doll? Some drama actor you wish would do?"
They asked me "Do you think you love her?"
"Why? Am I supposed to do what you expect me to do? What am I? A doll? Some drama actor you wish would do?"
"Because I believed you would do it. Because I trusted you to. You told me you'd do it."
"Must I keep up to your expectations all the time? Can't I fail you for once? You think I'm perfect?"
"You're a disappointment. You're a lair."
"Sorry to disappoint you but so what? Am I supposed to put up an apology, because you expect it? Am I supposed to do what you want as an apology?"
"Yes you jerk, because it's the right thing to do."
"For you, that is. Not for me..."
6
Why should I put up to people's expectations? Am I a sure success? I'm not perfect. All the fools are forcing me to be so.
7
They said I was selfish.
I said at least I would probably be the last one alive while everyone else would die selflessly for each other.
8
I told them "A thought love is a useless and untrue love." That I had to know I loved her.
Because knowing that you love someone is better than thinking you do; like knowing that you're going to die is far more serious than thinking you would.
So, they asked me again, "Do you know you love her?"
"I don't know," I replied "Sadly I don't."
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
will take you everywhere.
acts III
Sunday, December 27, 2009 11:16 AM
8
I told them "A thought love is a useless and untrue love." That I had to know I loved her.
Because knowing that you love someone is better than thinking you do; like knowing that you're going to die is far more serious than thinking you would.
So, they asked me again, "Do you know you love her?"
"I don't know," I replied "Sadly I don't."
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
will take you everywhere.
jolly is the merry soul
10:52 AM
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
it's the 3rd day of Christmas but i don't care i'm late, you see.
ok
yesterday i went to the zoo.
company trip.
and the zoo's changed over the years.
like everything else in singapore.
somerset, orchard has new malls.
soon sentosa and marina bay will change too.
fiddled around with my father's camera.
wooh. i love manual focus.
i managed to do some pictures with spiffy angles.
mainly animals, and plants.
sadly it rained late afternoon.
we crowded around the polar bear enclosure.
after some while we went back home.
i changed and took my presents.
and santa's hat
off to ash's party.
met up with israfael and afiq at the market.
met up with michael on the bus.
saw the guys at the swimming pool.
and soon we went bbq.
not much people came, but hey, as long as we are part of a class, that's good enough.
huddled around eating prawns.
haha, fatin can shell prawns out with one hand.
chatted around.
talking about life and family, the sorts.
then taxi-d home with fatin and michael.
2e3 is a great class.
every student now feels worried, how's he supposed to start his 3rd year,
anew with a new background, with people old and new, with teachers, with subjects and a cca.
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
will take you everywhere.
jingle-ly jingle-ly balls on my tree.
Thursday, December 24, 2009 10:31 AM
oh what the hell!
enough of my thought-filled, complex, profound, whatever posts.
because:
IT'S GONNA BE CHRISTMAS!
TONIGHT'S CHRISTMAS EVE!
I'M GONNA COLLECT THE CHRISTMAS LOG CAKE FOR THE FAMILY!
I'M GONNA BUY SMALL GIFTS FOR EACH SPECIAL PERSON I KNOW!
AND I PRESENT YOU A CHOCOLATE CHRISTMAS!
well not yet.
i've yet to buy today.
:P
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
will take you everywhere.
acts II
Wednesday, December 23, 2009 10:54 AM
5
"Why? Am I supposed to do what you expect me to do? What am I? A doll? Some drama actor you wish would do?"
"Because I believed you would do it. Because I trusted you to. You told me you'd do it."
"Must I keep up to your expectations all the time? Can't I fail you for once? You think I'm perfect?"
"You're a disappointment. You're a lair."
"Sorry to disappoint you but so what? Am I supposed to put up an apology, because you expect it? Am I supposed to do what you want as an apology?"
"Yes you jerk, because it's the right thing to do."
"For you, that is. Not for me..."
6
Why should I put up to people's expectations? Am I a sure success? I'm not perfect. All the fools are forcing me to be so.
7
They said I was selfish.
I said at least I would probably be the last one alive while everyone else would die selflessly for each other.
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
will take you everywhere.
off the snowed track
Tuesday, December 22, 2009 10:30 PM
Remember when I caught your eye
you gave me rainbows and butterflies
we did enjoy our happiness?
when our love was over
I was such a mess
I smiled at you
and you smiled back
that's when I knew
there?s no turning back
you said you loved me
and I did too
now though it's over
I still love you
you're in my mind
you're in my heart
I wish I knew right from the start
all my friends said you break my heart
A heartbreaker right from the start
I tried to fight it
I tried so hard
and every day
I pray to god
that you and me were meant to be
but you had another
you had a lover
And now is gone
I don't know why
I feel like crying
just want to die
I can't look at you
and you know why
no, I tried so hard
to catch your eye
you're in my mind
you're in my heart
I wish I knew right from the start
all my friends said you break my heart
A heartbreaker right from the start
you're in my mind
you're in my heart
I wish I knew right from the start
all my friends said you break my heart
A heartbreaker right from the start
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
will take you everywhere.
Sunday, December 20, 2009 12:21 PM
Note to Reader:
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you like to 'woohoo'?
12:18 PM
definition of woohoo
A term for "sex" in the Sims 2 simulation game. In order to keep it rated "T" for teen, Maxis needed to use "woohoo" instead of "sex"
or
A word that may be said when something good has happened.
or
Extreme satisfaction. There is really no other way to say it.
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ya prolly not gonna QQ over this
Saturday, December 19, 2009 7:06 PM
definition of Prolly
Shortened version of "probably". Typically used in online conversations, although REALLY lazy people have started using it in verbal conversations as well...
definition of QQ
Literally, QQ is a set of crying eyes. However, given its usual context in online games, it is usually assumed to mean "Cry more noob."
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Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
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greater heights
6:30 PM
hello, i'm back in singapore!
bleh.
i got ripped off.
the 24hr internet service was for 24 hours straight.
seriosuly, who uses the computer for 24 hours straight?
there goes RM48
anyway, here's the post that was supposed to appear on the 16th of Nov
today we went to genting for the day.
woke up at 5am to eat and bathe.
then we took a cab to puduraya terminal, not far from the hotel.
well, duh, we're still in the city.
i enjoy the friendly taxi drivers haha.
got the tickets for the bus to the skyway station.
took skyway, blah blah blah.
ok, on towards the point, genting didn't change much.
walked around.
went to the theme park.
and, woah.
there were many chinese malaysian teens at the park.
bloody hell.
how do i know they are chinese malaysian?
well, because *prolly chinese singaporeans can never pay for the trip.
let me tell you the stereotype:
black and white clothes, a pinch of pink for girls
hot pants+ stockings, well, of course, it's cold up there.sweatermost of the time have tattoo.hokkien speaking.together with a bunch or with girlfriends.
it was only until around noon or afternoon when the families arrive.
haha
THE RIDES WERE GREAT!
BUT THE QUEUES WERE HORRIBLE >:(
how long do you have to wait, 30 mins or something?
just for a ride that last less than 10mins ?
oh c'mon there no rationale behind this.
because of the above-mentioned situation.
me and father decided we could only ride 1 epic thrill ride today.
Spaceshot or Corkscrew
we chose the latter.
corkscrew was being close that time, a long queue were already there.
we queued. and after {insert any seemingly long amount} mins
the ride was opened.
and some teens rushed to cut queue.
motherf******....
ok, after {insert a seemingly longer amount than previous} mins.
we finally arrived.
i got to take out my glasses.
and just nice, the fog came.
and i couldn't see anything.
not even the tracks on the side.
vroom, and the ride was over.
for a second there i thot i really wasted my time.
well, heck it. it's over. what i gonna do?
ok, back to the bus terminal.
bought some tickets back to kl.
and played the waiting game.
the bus came and went, we're back in kl.
but not in the hotel yet.
looking for taxi
"to corus hotel? RM20" said the driver."RM15 lah, corus is near." my father rebutted"RM20, got traffic""RM15...aiyah, never mind. i go find other.""ok ok, RM15."
haha, anti-touting at its best.
and soon we're back in the hotel room.
when i realised the internet service timed-out.
"oh f*ck, my post."
PS: lazy to post pictures. what you gonna do? *QQ over it?
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
will take you everywhere.
meh, i've to tell you this
Tuesday, December 15, 2009 9:20 PM
definition of Meh
Indifference; to be used when one simply does not care.
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will take you everywhere.
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picture says all
7:15 PM
hello people!i'm at corus hotel, kl, malaysia.
finally got my father to buy the internet access.
24 hour use for RM48 :P
anw, chewing gum galore in m'sia eh?
ok. KLCC was the first mall we've been to.
bloody luxury stores, louis vuitton, prada, coach, whatever.
i noticed that the branded stores such as converse, quicksilver, billlabong, the sorts,
would most probably be on the top few levels.
the tower doesn't look as tall as i expected it to be.
looks short from below. meh.
maybe that's how people see me, short. :P
spent the evening with family staring at the fountain.
haha, staring, sounds boring eh?
ok. on tues, which is today, considering yesterday was the first day in KL.
we went to berjaya times square.
cheaper than klcc i must say.
some small shops.
AND I BOUGHT MY JACKET! :D
AND SHORT! :DD
and henceforth spent RM200 :P
sadly, i didn't go to the theme park. haha
the roller coaster was EPIC scream standard, i could hear.
ate at kenny rogers.
roast chicken with the family.
ok, went to Starhill Gallery
bloody luxury goods, we never bought them.
skip!
ok, went to Pavilion,
typical high end shopping mall.
think of it like raffles city, only bigger.
and walked backed to the hotel.
watched ESPN football in the room.
woah, nice.
i think football's pretty nice.
anyways, going to Genting tomorrow.
bye!
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
will take you everywhere.
bump
Saturday, December 12, 2009 12:56 PM
eh, i don't know why i'm so emo with those posts, haha.
anyways.
class chalet was fun.
period. nothing else.
other than cycling, sleeping, tai-ti, bbq, whatever.
hm...
back at home, nothing much happening.
feeling bored on facebook, many friends joining stupid groups. -.-
eh, mafia wars screwed up, tsk, i never play it for quite a while...
what else?
oh, going m'sia, kl next week.
hopefully they'll sell cheaper clothes there.
i want to update my wardrobe :)
that's all i guess.
off finding for some techno beats.
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
will take you everywhere.
acts
Friday, December 11, 2009 8:12 PM
1
"I'm not happy."
"Why?"
"I'm not happy with you, because of you."
"So? What are you gonna do about it. Are you going to change me?"
"Yes, I will if I can."
"The problem is, you can't. Fool, you can't change someone they way you want them to be. The easiest thing you can do, is to yourself."
2
They asked me one day, "Whose side are you on?"
I tell them, "Never on any."
3
"Do you have something against me?"
"No."
"Well then, OK, but if you do, I don't give a damn. Because I've held up so much I wished I never knew you."
4
I don't understand the crumpling inside feeling. I'm not weak, not saying anyone is.
But I feel like they are stupid, that they don't understand what I understand. They don't agree with what I agree. Just stupid. Nevertheless, why the hell am I there?
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
will take you everywhere.
A Capiche?
Monday, December 7, 2009 10:50 PM
"I don't like it when people tell me what they think of others.
Because I don't wanna know.
Cause I don't really much care.
Unless, I want to know and I ask them."
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
will take you everywhere.
Oh sorry? Did I hurt you? Get over it.
10:48 PM
anw, a short late night post.
lazy much?
haha. anw, class chalet coming up.
am i excited? not much.
meh.
anw, the very thing i know about next year is:
i don't have a march holiday to look forward to... :(
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
will take you everywhere.
Sunday, December 6, 2009 9:57 PM
"This is my world. You are not welcome in my world."
i feel quite pissed off for no reason right now, haha.
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
will take you everywhere.
no one, had this feeling
Saturday, December 5, 2009 8:54 PM
prove me wrong.
do you know the feeling, that you feel so jealous yet happy yet indifferent yet irritated?
so goddamn confused for that very moment but soon you don't much care :)
more of,
you see something you never really knew much.
you know about it, you expected it.
and you feel so damn stupid realising it now.
you feel like a fool
the fool who wants to smack his/her head off his'/her's body.
any person in concern of that subject.
you feel like a jealous fool :)
but,
you feel somehow indifferent.
like 'hey, i don't give a damn about that!'
should you care?
NO, you shouldn't and you did not.
because the subject in concern of is of long ago and all-so insignificant.
you feel so goddamn happy,
you feel like a happy fool and
thank that goddamn boy or girl for
being part of his life and his experience.
you feel like jumping and laughing as though it's a joke.
you feel like beaming a smile so wide you don't give a f*ck about the people in concern anymore.
and you feel so irritated, like you could do something that moment in time not to experience that. and change it to what you want it to be, your way.
haha. try,
prove me wrong.
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
will take you everywhere.
you sir, should be shot
Thursday, December 3, 2009 9:39 PM
i should be focusing on my own life instead of others.
i find it stupid to look forward to what you expect in other people's lives because it won't happen. ditto, i'm guilty of it myself.
oh well, enough of others.
anyway, went to helped mr soo move some bags to his new house with chongsoon.
and our first job was to, remove some sticky double sided tape from some sort of hanging-thing...
nevermind, you get the boring point.
anyway, we took the taxi and wow...
mr soo, from living in a hdb,
NOW LIVES IN A CONDO.
omg, me and cs were shocked.
haha.
sweet crib at the 9th floor.
hdtv, 3 bedroom, the sorts.
it costs $800k - 900k. wow?
nevermind. damn, i'm focusing on other people's lives again.
anyway, me, cs and soo played tai ti.
and soo won once.
D:
what did he do? maths?
lol, nevermind.
then, me and cs took a cab back to his house to meet dickson and play poker with paper money!
:D
a fun day.
at least i didn't stuff myself inside my house, play tf2 and facebooking.
oh well.
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
will take you everywhere.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009 11:08 AM
triple post today, enjoy your time here.
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
will take you everywhere.
not to dwell, but to help
10:36 AM
I decided to visit my past one day. And there I saw a boy filled with a young mind, a young indecisive mind. He didn't know what to do, he simply "Do what I know, Know what I Do".He did what he knew, he only knew what he did.That must been his first ever philosophical principle he ever made. However, that's never going to bring him anywhere. For he didn't know what other were doing, he didn't do what others knew.Isn't that the perfect loner attitude? I felt disgusted.He was this boy who went to library every recess after eating on a sandwich with chocolate spread. In the library he read puzzle books, the type of adventure books with riddles and mazes of sorts.He was filled with infatuation. I knew infatuation was hopeless love. He never knew what infatuation was, nor realise how hopeless.He was a studious boy, at home after using computer. He would seclude himself in his room to do worksheets and sorts. And back to the computer.Unlike other boys, he went Wikipedia, partly due to the fact he didn't have broadband. Online games and Youtube wasn't his norm.And I felt that I really wasted my 6 years in my young life being that boy.F*cking wasted...The next day, I saw the boy. And while everyone else was playing Catching, there was he, bent down, head low, reading his book.I went up behind him, I picked up a Bat and wanted to beat him out of existence. But then I stopped.No, not this way. And I decided to help him.After he graduated, I became a voice to him. I became a hissing and snarling voice. I became his joker. I laughed at his life that seemed like a joke. He was a joke but I'll never kill him. I gave him a butterfly knife in his mind for him whenever he needs it. He pointed it at the world and at himself at times.I gave him a challenge. I gave him one more hopeless love. A hopeless love fated the start.And 28 days later after the end, a few months later with his friends, weeks and days later...
He finally knew it all. He finally understood me. And I decided to give him my laugh and be a happy man.He knew it all and all he need to know.He didn't know what he only did but what others did.He didn't do what he only knew but what others knew.He was a happy, realised man. And I didn't need to kill him anymore.
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
will take you everywhere.
not lies, but truth
10:27 AM
(10:41 PM) {brian}: i see.
i lack the emotion of hate and sadness... haha
(10:42 PM) .:Ðickson ™: no
in your heart, you DO hate someone.
in your heart, you DO feel sad sometimes.
(10:42 PM) {brian}: i just don't show it i guess.
(10:42 PM) .:Ðickson ™: it's just that your MIND thinks so that you lack of those 2.
thanks dickson, you finally completed my understanding of emotions.
to think of it, all those who helped me in my sec 2 character development are following me next year in the same class :)
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
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i didn't need to meet her, i had met you
10:20 AM
i knew it all already.i'm so happy.i know my character that isn't low.i know my self worth that isn't poor.i know my life that isn't guilt.i know my happiness that isn't lies.i know my sadness that isn't hate.i know forgiveness.i know friendship.i don't really know how i knew it all.i only learnt it all after i had known them.i only learnt it all after i had met you.thank to all.thanks to you.
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
will take you everywhere.
sleeper agent
Tuesday, December 1, 2009 10:40 PM
i find it a chore to my mind when i visit my previous blog.
gosh, i didn't know i was a boy who talks to himself in his post.
i was an infatuated, lost soul.
i was an emotional, troubled human.
but what am i now? i don't know.
haha.
i'm a happy man.
that's all i can say...
anyway, late night boredom sets in.
the speaker's audio card is screwed up.
no sound.
videos are pointless to watch.
should i invite the class to chat?
oh, not again i guess...
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
will take you everywhere.
deferred success
3:49 PM
and i thot i was cheap...
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
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peaceful advocate
9:04 AM
what type of person am i?
i'm not a person who likes to argue.
and if i argue, i'll always reasons things out, perhaps unnecessarily sometimes.
but usually, i'll somehow accept the opposition and admit myself wrong.
however, why don''t i like to argue?
what am i? democratic?
yeah maybe, i'm Libra.
Libra is the Scales
i weigh both sides out.
i am a judge.
so, maybe i rather see an argument rather than be in one.
because most of the times i try to reason my mind over their matters, they ask me to get lost.
well, yes, perhaps i'm nosey haha.
but people don't really have to fight do they?
i must been have brought up with bible teachings as a Catholic.
"forgive our sins as we forgive those who sinned against us"
well, anyway, it's morning, 9.14am.
mum's busy in the kitchen.
i don't know what's gonna happen today.
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
will take you everywhere.