i need candy
Monday, March 29, 2010 8:50 PM
There's something about April, May, June that really pisses me off.
I don't really know why? Those 3 month from last year were the suckiest.
Anyway...
I don't really know what I want.
I know I want to win FAC,
I know I want the best for AISSSJAB corp.
However, I'm lacking the mood.
My mood's getting killed off gradually.
Things start to suck in life and it worsens my mood even further.
Please, whatever minute things that don't make sense to me.
Don't tick me off.
I feel like flaring up. I feel like I want to scream at all the hypocrisy and sarcasm.
But I don't to screw up my life. Please, please....
Beyond FAC, then what?
Win Gold? Go Nats? Waste more time?
How find time to study and play? Friends complain I CCA freak?
Then what? Maybe go SINMAL (bullshit, no way) ? Waste more more time.
I tell myself I need to get the reputation "go this comp, that comp etc etc -.-"
But what's the point?
Win Silver? Still have NDP? Maybe it's more meaningful.
Since I don't want to die down every Friday training finding no purpose in SJAB anymore.
tsk.
Win Bronze? Oh please... you think I wish for that?
tsk tsk....
So what am i supposed to do?
Be Happy; Accept Life, don't turn it down?
I hope, really, really...
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.