it's been some time to
Friday, May 28, 2010 8:02 PM
the
28 of June, 2010.
i woke up to this day.
somewhat indifferent, as though this day was like any other.
however, the day passed by and now i stare at the following weeks and days.
camps, courses, projects, homework.
i'm scared
why? because i don't know what to do, what i'm doing.
i'm scared people will be disappointed in me, will scream in my face that i didn't do a good job or whatever, or will complain behind the scenes and my paranoia's active.
but, i don't want to do anything.
i need rest.
i need - be happy.
somehow... i feel that's not the right thing to do, not yet.
i've got things to handle.
before they even dare scream at me.
before i'm convinced they will, because they might, they surely can.
but think, why am i so worried about?
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
(working on)
Monday, May 17, 2010 8:56 PM
The Principles of the Burdened
"Burden is self-inflicted, not caused by others. Others influence burden, and your weakness will surely succumb to it."
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
act XIII
Saturday, May 15, 2010 11:10 PM
13Why, did I reject high and promising positions?
Did I really have a capability? Or was I just a
fool?
But, I know why now:
I despised politics.
Playing a game would only bring burden.
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
act XII
Friday, May 14, 2010 2:28 PM
12"It's fairly obvious, your actions. However, you're helping.
I
don't mind having shut ourselves up."
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
act XI
Thursday, May 13, 2010 10:55 PM
11I'm sick of the questions.
So I ask them, "What do
you do in your time?"
They replied, "We spend our time working hard for others. And also dwelling greatly on others actions and words to us and our words and actions to each other."
"Guess why I have the time? Because I
don't what you
do."
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
act X
10:44 PM
10"I wish I could go out of routine and be in many places. I wish i could do many things."
They ask me, "Do you have the time?"
"I have," I tell them, "
all the time in the world."
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
there, it's over!
Wednesday, May 12, 2010 8:33 PM
mid year exams are over and done with, not yet actually, results next monday :/
last paper was emath.
hm...
i shall not bore you with my stale exam experiences, shall we?
anyways, after the paper ended, guess what was my immediate agenda?
CCA.
particularly NDP, haha, 'responsibility' much?
just 3 days after the exams and i've to wear my half uniform again :|
doesn't matter actually.
seems like i'm in the sense that i've got all the time in the world.
talking about time.
ate lunch with e3? no. e4? neither.
other than the guys, that was all.
and we watched iron man 2 afterwards.
got them to stay for the credits to see the 'supposedly' extra scene.
take that! there was an extra scene :D
sadly, after that, we had pretty much nothing to do.
and it was only 3 at the afternoon.
sigh.
went back home and read Wiseguys, watched anime, and played tf2.
talk about an in-house routine.
god, soon enough it'll bore me...
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
be happy
Tuesday, May 11, 2010 8:37 PM
this afternoon i finally had a desired nap.
was so sleepy for the afternoon i dozed off for half an hour, as the rain poured outside, and the room was cool ._.
of course, revised afterwards, just some read-up on concepts.
i feel so much less burdened than last year.
i wonder why do people bother being so tedious to themselves by worrying too much or dwelling on such trivial hopes and matters.
don't waste your time, or energy, or mind, or emotions.
there! that's the reason why i feel much less burdened:
Because I don't have such an emotional, mind-filled, wearisome, time-wasting burden.
furthermore, i have time for other things in life :)
beats me what other people think about my holiday schedule.
yes, it is burnt up. but i'm sure i won't die in the end :)
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
about time i posted this,
Sunday, May 9, 2010 8:04 PM
Written by Neil Brian on 19/9/2009
The Principles of Letting Go (remastered)
Before the time you had to let go, there was the time you held it. Before you held it, you had nothing before.
If you had nothing at the very start, is there harm to return back to nothing?
~
Here is a analogy:
You lived under the night sky, where the fields shone under moonlight and starlight. Simple and soothing. And then you lived under that same sky with a torch: a flame warm and comfy.If you lose the torch, is it harm to return back to the simplicity of the night sky?With it turn out so bad that the moon and stars would too, disappear?If letting go means to revert to such a 'normal' time,
there is no harm.
~
But, there
is harm. It is the harm caused by confusion and contradiction of yourself.
What do we all let go off? Often, we let go of an object previously held so dearly to us. And the object had to leave and that is unfortunate.
It hurts, doesn't it? To have that object leave you, and nothing you could possibly say or think or do can get it back.
You truly
let go because it hurts. It is obvious, why hold on to something that hurts? You may say that the object is your happiness and love, but regardless, it still hurt you in the end.
Why do you still try to hold on? Because you believe you can fight for that happiness and love back? You're already hurt and you want to get hurt more by fighting?
That, my friend, is a contradiction.
The truth, you must realize, is that you have forgotten you are fighting for
something that has left you already. Therefore, you are holding to nothing at all.
You have to let go because it hurts.
You have to left go because you can't fight for it,
because you are holding on to nothing; something that had already left.
And it hurts so much fighting.
Fighting for nothing you are holding on to.
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***Some bonus info:
The purpose of such 'Principles' was to get my perspectives on life straight to the point.
Such thoughts are true to my mind, during which I've written this.
These 'Principles' are not directed at person in particular, the purpose of such principle is to share my perspectives with other. Be it to help or to disagree with.
These 'Principles' are inspired by the various experiences I've experienced in life.
For me to learn, for the better :)
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
blazing
7:30 PM
updated my Links.
removed like 5+ dead blog links,
mostly because "Blog not Found".
fortunately i've given Private blogs a chance,
but there's like 3+ private blogs in the list, and why bother reading?
the only thing i can expect is a Permission Denied. haha.
oh well, anyway. this sunday i wore:
A blue-purple thin-striped long-sleeved shirt from Hang Ten Urban Wear
A pair of slim jeans (not skinny, i don't own skinnies) from Levi's Signature
A pair Converse sneakers.
show off much? tsk.
but actually... that's not the point.
the point is that i've yet to find a day when i can wear my blazer.
god, what should i do?
host a dinner and dance or something? like i got the cash -.-
wear it to northpoint? please... wth?
anyways, nevermind about my whining.
3 more papers to go.
yes! no chinese paper for me!
gonna spend lunch with the no-MT-paper group :D
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
act IX
Saturday, May 8, 2010 10:42 PM
9"Sometimes I say the stupid things, I think."
"Yes, you do."
"Right... But do you think you really know how I feel?"
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.
life's kinematic
2:16 PM
i've been reflecting on my past occasionally.
and i've realised that people, including myself, change all the time.
haha, whatever.
was reading my saved messages when i was bored.
FYI: there are only two messages by myself, so stop thinking of other types of messages.
one message was the address for compassvale sec.
the other message was...
Resolutions for the Year:
Try not to be a jerk.
Don't answer teacher's questions so often.
Lay low, don't establish a well known or high position.
Ignore those you can't forgive your wrongdoing, before, now or after.
Never feel depressed, or at the least, try not to.
Establish new connections gradually.
Forgive your past, forgive yourself.
Have happiness, find happiness.
Have hope, find hope.
saved:
07:58:44am
09-01-2010
on another note, exams was kinda ok.
a taste of sec 3 papers.
and i've finished my sciences papers!
woohoo!
enjoyed last friday afternoon after chem paper with the 3e4 guys.
eating, reliving our childhoods, slacking around in the playground.
going to yishun park and play swing, ninja warrior, spinning.
And yes, Blind Mice!
haha, played basketball till it rained shortly.
aw.
what a fun day.
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.