%FLIGHTS OF FANCY

Things You Need To Know About Me

Tuesday, June 29, 2010 9:14 PM

Firstly, the most important thing you need to know about me, is that I strongly believe you don't know everything about me.
Even if you think you do, I think you a really a fool.

1 Please F*cking Reply.

I'm very sensitive when I don't get response.
Even if I'm soft, whatever, or you're busy with something, at least give me the message that you notice my presence and sadly you can't reply me.
I get really really pissed if I don't get my message across. Maybe partly because I don't express myself well. However, when I'm putting in effort to get you to understand, please put in effort as well to get yourself to understand me.

2 I Hate Whispers.

I'm very sensitive when I see people whisper or murmur around me.
It pisses me off to the maximum, especially if there might be a possibility your whispers are in regards to a topic about me or directed at me. Yeah, whatever, I know you're trying to be polite and hide your comments away, but your actions of whispering and giggling in that distance away says alot and that's no secret.

3 Can't do a simple job of Forgiving, can you?

I'm someone who feels guilty very easily. Extremely pressured when I know I've done something wrong and I've yet to pay a toll.
However, when I say a simple "Sorry", I mean it in utmost sincerity. I irritates me when you don't acknowledge it right away, or not at all. If that's the case, I'll leave you be. I've already done my best.

4 I'm Too Kind

You should be glad I ain't some low-IQ individual grabbing you by the head and punching your skull in. Or some mentally-unstable patient throwing my drink at you in rage.

Which brings me to the next point...

5 Please Make Up Your Mind

I hate people who are indecisive. I'm a person who is eager for solutions that is either neutral or a win for all. When I finally come up with a solution which provides no benefits for both opposing party, other than the benefit of neutrality, I wish not to hear any objections which it's only intention is a self-advantage. If so, I will wish to f*ck you up.

6 I'm really stressed and pissed off at times

And I know it, I obviously know it.
Please don't state that fact once again straight in my face because I'm not dumb and I know how I feel.

Sigh.

Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.

Saturday, June 26, 2010 11:20 PM

sigh...
no mood for school.
no mood at all :(
no mood to face the teachers and declare, 'i have not done this'.

not because i don't want to, i'm just tired :/

Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.

wall

Wednesday, June 23, 2010 11:40 PM

Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.

back home

Tuesday, June 22, 2010 12:24 PM

:( ANCOC 2010 is over.

sadly, it wasn't a memorable camp in my utmost honest opinion.

since day 1, i sat on the table with almost all the quiet people in Alpha 1. yawn.
i was envying the other side, so fun :( always could hear them laugh for some moments.

didn't take bunk i/c. yawn. nan hua corp dominate all bunk i/c positions. but hey, to think of it, bunk i/c really didn't matter. at least i need not be there first to open a bunk.

sort of quiet and bored for activities, regardless of whether it was interesting or not.
hmm, maybe, just maybe.

i missed the hype for ancoc :(

after camp, i joined the peeps at the table at mac.
they had so much to talk about.
the ai girls and their rants about hci guys.
really funny moments in the camp.

all those, when i just could only remember dull moments :(
even my friendship dance was screwed.

went clockwise through some people, then got stuck with some idiots not moving at all >:(
somehow or another, i turned anti clockwise.
and after more dull moments, it ended.
no hype for friendship dance :( no hype at all.

to think of it, was it my fault for not opening my hype for the fun and the thrills for ancoc?
or was it just some really frickin unfortunate circumstance that made me end up like that. :(

gaurd comm was just abit more interesting.
spent the night sitting with derrick, seeing officers talk and s3 sir ranting about his scary trip to the toilet -.- lol.
sadly, dozed on for the later night.
and guess what happened next morn?

sigh. yawn.

i told myself after ancoc, that there wasn't much fun worth blogging about. true.
now, i don't even want to make a facebook group either.

Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.

Don't waste your time reading 2 posts, In short:

Wednesday, June 16, 2010 3:44 PM

Some point in time throughout the period you had that special feeling of accomplishment or some sort? How do I describe it? Some EPIC feeling? Some awesome feeling on an extraordinary ordinary day?

Then again, think of it, we felt it before already, didn't we?

When we were together as trainees

"We went through tasks, working together with our individual actions, keeping mind towards a common goal."

because of that, we were together, it was because of that we became what we are now.

Now we're trainers, most NCOs, we got to think of a Solution, to the problem of losing that feeling we most wished of.

We've finally had that feeling of 'Togetherness' but that's not going to last long.
If we're going to stand here and simply enjoy it, it'll fade away.
We're supposed to keep it staying, make it a goal.
Make it a goal that we'll do it, Together, for us.

That despite our differences in any aspect of our ranks, positions and experience, we will still want to work together.
That despite criticism to our work, we will still pull through, we will show them we can do it and whatever they said was invalid.

"We will go through tasks,

working together with our individual actions in our Committee positions,

keeping mind towards a Common Goal -

Our own Togetherness, a Bond, a Belonging to AI-SJAB.

All these that'll we'll pass down to the next generation, because most of all,

that's Our responsibility until we finally step down."

Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.

12:08 PM

(continued from the previous post)

Firstly, once again, it's up to you to agree or disagree with me. It's up to you to think whether I'm this idiot speaking nonsense and simply trying to get attention. Whatever, I'm giving you a free will that I don't care about what you do with it.

Back again, I said that because:
"We went through tasks, working together with our individual actions, keeping mind towards a common goal."
that's why we've gone through such times together, to what we are now.

This 'Togetherness' or bond comes because of the above fact.

This 'Togetherness' existed most obviously in Sec 1. There were no barriers between us set firmly, thus allowing us to work together. We had a common goal everyday, it's a simple goal of being a great trainee and cadet of the corp AI-SJAB, under the leadership of our seniors. They, were also responsible for us.

There, a minor rift came the next year. First Aid Competition. It's not to be blamed for anything. But I cannot deny that because of it, there were lines drawn between us. How can this be?
Look at it, don't tell me you have never used the term 'Competition' and 'Non-competition' member before. And lastly, Ma'am stated, perhaps due to this, we had varying experiences.

And expanding on this subject - varying experiences, what would that determine in the future? It's the way people look towards one another. Tell yourself, do you look at a 'Competition' member differently than a 'Non-Competition' member? I shall not elaborate further.

This was not the only factor that affects the way we view some people with others. Think, I don't need to explain so much.

What's the current situation?
Ever since we entered the Committee of 2010, we had our positions established on Probation. There were job scopes, lines drawn further. There were more and more distinct lines drawn, by the way we view others: based on how useful there were, how important they were, how much they have done, whether they were close friends or acquaintances, whether they were useful or useless in our minds.

And most of all. We lost the Common Goal we held in our trainee days. We were trainers for our trainees, no longer trainees pulling of drills for our seniors. We could no longer pull through a day and say convincingly we've gone through it Together as One, can we? Was there a day we had a strong sense of 'Togetherness'?

Now we're trainers, most NCOs, we got to think of a Solution.

We've finally had that feeling of 'Togetherness' but that's not going to last long.
If we're going to stand here and simply enjoy it, it'll fade away.
We're supposed to keep it staying, make it a goal.
Make it a goal that we'll do it, Together, for us.

That despite our differences in any aspect of our ranks, positions and experience, we will still want to work together.
That despite criticism to our work, we will still pull through, we will show them we can do it and whatever they said was invalid.

Previously,

"We went through tasks, working together with our individual actions, keeping mind towards a common goal."

Now,

"We will go through tasks,
working together with our individual actions in our Committee positions,
keeping mind towards a Common Goal -
Our own Togetherness, a Bond, a Belonging to AI-SJAB.
All these that'll we'll pass down to the next generation, because most of all,
that's our responsibility until we finally step down."

Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.

...

Tuesday, June 15, 2010 9:26 PM

Dear ,

Firstly, it's up to each of us if we thought these two days were useful or useless. Whether we got anything out from it or not. Whether we expected it to be better or worse.

Despite the above, you cannot deny that you felt something. Some point in time throughout the period you had that special feeling of accomplishment or some sort? How do I describe it? Some EPIC feeling? Some awesome feeling on an extraordinary ordinary day?

Then again, think of it, we felt it before already, didn't we?

We went through times of trainings and activities together as a batch.
We went through many times:

Footdrill, getting screamed at for almost anything.
Savoring that water break, joking with one another for some silly mistake, some of us struggling to comprehend what your own feet was supposed to.
Maybe, we most probably preferred playing Games to doing PT.

I don't need to list every activity that we've gone through. You can remember your experiences, our experiences:

There was Promotion Camp. We entered the corp. There came CCC. After CCC some had our badges. We had Zone 7 Bowling. We had Zone Presentation. We had AGI.

One year and I can't list everything out.

Just when our SJAB life was getting painted on. We had 2 new friends. There came competition too. There came achievements made known to us, to be earned. Henceforth the pride, we expected to uphold. Under the next Committee of 2009, came a new batch of cadets. Came seniors and officers we now know of. Came H1N1 and our June Holidays wiped almost clean. Sooner or later November camps we had to attend. And yes, BNCOC.

Shortly after, these times I need not explain: CCA Open House. Probationary Committee of 2010 New batch of cadets. Promotion camp. FAC Competition 2010 CCC

Upcoming, ANCOC. St John Day.Stepping Up.
and beyond...

Where was I? I must have gone off.

You know what that feeling was? Why that feeling happened? Because of this that's why we pulled through all the past. What?

We went through tasks, working together with our individual actions, keeping mind towards a common goal.

Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.

Monday, June 14, 2010 7:56 PM

The Greatest Punishment You Can Ever Give Is Forgiveness
A Selfless Forgiveness, One Never Expecting Guilt As A Condition.

Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.

what is?

Saturday, June 12, 2010 8:55 PM

Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.

says it all

Friday, June 11, 2010 8:06 PM

click the picture for more. sadly, i can't fit the whole pic in.

Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.

omgwtfbbq.

Thursday, June 10, 2010 9:28 PM

omg, wtf. 10 days of free holidays days left.
no mood to play.

Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.

act XIV

12:37 AM

14

You, the one trying to stand tall and pout in our faces, trying to shout and get our attentions to you.
You think you win? You think you got all the support you needed? You think you'll get your desperate message across to whoever you want?

Think again, no one really care. No one bothers about you. I don't care about you, I bet others don't too.
Think again, you get nothing.

You lose, have a good day :)

Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination
will take you everywhere.